This blog has been quite a lot of work. There’s lots of writing on it. I like writing. I look back on some of the posts and in a better mood I enjoy the fact that some of these were written in an entirely different frame of mind than the one that follows. And I cannot imagine writing that much now, since my abyss seems to be getting deeper and deeper lately. But if you liked anything I did here I am happy. Going to Buffalo next week. Hopefully see some old friends and some old new friends. I get the nagging feeling that this “vacation” will be the same as all the others. Hurry up, wait, end up feeling lonely, as if there’s no ‘there’ there. God knows there’s no ‘here’ here.
I know what I need to do. I’m just not doing it.